by Chameli Ardagh: Sometimes it may feel as if you have
lost connection to God/Goddess/It/Essence…
and you think you have to learn some more methods,
or you have to “let go and accept”.
You have to think positive thoughts,
or rather get rid of thoughts altogether,
or that you have to process or fix your brokenness
in order to find home again.
You can follow the hooks of your inner “Mrs. Fix-it” for eons,
and around and around you go.
Yet, at any moment,
she-who-breathes-you is right here.
She is like an expanding blossoming within you, a Beingness.
She is not a state, or a high, or a celestial mirage who only visits on holidays.
She is that which beats the heart in your chest, she is a nuclear power in the
innermost chamber of all things that pulls space and vibration and energy into this – what we call ordinary life.
There is nothing wrong in doing or thinking or analyzing or planning,
but when these processes are uprooted from Being,
they spin us into the hallucination of separation and dusty repetition.
Here we feel shut down from Shakti, the vitality, creativity
and sense of belonging that our soul thirsts for.
You cannot “do” or “think” your way to the Goddess.
It is through a moment-to-moment intimacy that you descend into the infinite knowing waiting underneath the fixed compartments of the known.
:: Practice ~ Drop the hooks
Practice today to not follow the well-trodden tracks of Mrs. Fix-it in your head.
No need to stop her, or discuss with her, when she comes with her hooks, just laugh. Yes, laugh. Even if you don’t think it is funny,
laugh as a practice.
Out loud if you can.